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My Dear Best friend You're a social butterfly
Pretend you don't know me
As you flutter by
You see right through me
And just pass it off as another lie

You said we were best friends
But it is not a surprise
That it has come to an end
You dropped me
For another silly trend

And now you've left me
It's clear who you are
But before I could not see
You're a self-obsessed little girl
And now I'm finally free
All The Same Are you so blind
That you don't see
Just how cruel
Your words can be
And how much
You're hurting me
You could be hot
If you just lost some weight
You could be pretty
Shame you don't have her face
We are all unique
And beautiful in are own way
Except that we are all different
And be glad of the change
You'd still find faults
If we were all the same
Drowning In Confusion Drowning in confusion
Weighed down by the pain
Not knowing what to do
It's happening again

The marks on my wrist
Read I love you too
Afraid of what you've done
And what I'm doing to you

I didn't mean to hurt you
Or make you cry
I didn't realise what I was doing
Until you said 'goodbye'

I'm lost in a sea of anguish
And I don't know what to do
You are throwing me a lifeline
But can I trust you?
Please don't do it again Please don't do it again

My beckon of hope
In this sea of life
You were always there
To ease the pain and strife

Without you I don't know
What I'd do
Sorry for everything I have done
I don't want to lose you

I'm sorry for only caring about me
And blocking you out
I didn't understand what you were going through
But now I am left without a doubt

Knowing I was the one to cause this
And not knowing how to help
This is the one time
I wish I were someone else

If I could just be different
Then this would never be
A distorted nightmare
Of a lost memory

If only it were true
And I could take it back
Without your helping hand
My
All in vain I can't do this
And I know why
It seems easier
To just give up and die

The bitchy comments
The stupid lies
Just put on a smile
And dry my eyes

Drawn to a blade
To ease my pain
I try so hard
All in vain
Truth or paranoia All alone
I'll cry tonight
Instead of letting you know
How I feel inside
Fake a smile
'Cause I'm scared you won't understand
Feeling second best
And not even knowing why
Trying to comprehend
That look in your eye
Do you really care?
Or is it all pretend?
A fairy tale soon to come to an end
Truth or paranoia
I no longer know
I'm giving up on you
On all that I know

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Suicide

by ~xxxblackxrosexxx

I'm sorry i've got to do this
I can't take anymmore.
I loved you, and always will,
please don't forget me,
cos i'll never forget you.
I hope to see you later on
when your time to pass has come.
thankyou for helping me
I'm sorry it didnt work out better,
you all tried your best
please dont blame your selves.
thats not what I want,
I want you all to be happy,
go on with your lives.
do it for me cos I couldnt do it,
not even for myself.
I tried my best to be happy and free
but at the end of the day,
thats just not me.
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This is purley poetry.
I am not going to kill myself. Nor would I suggest it to anyone else.
I'm just trying to explain how people can feel at the lowest point of their life. we've all been there but if you just keep trying you will come out the other side and be thankful for it all because it makes you stronger.

You can trust me on that.
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Mood: Sadness ~breakneckwolf Dec 20, 2011
sadly i think i would just shoot myself and wouldn't have to write a letter... i think no one would care
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~GoWeegie Dec 17, 2011
NO, YOU FOOL! NO MATTER HOW BAD YOU THINK YOUR LIFE IS, IF YOU KILL YOURSELF, YOU'LL ONLY GO TO HELL BECAUSE YOU WASTED THE PRECIOUS GIFT OF ALL!! HELL IS MUCH WORSE THAN WHAT YOUR LIFE IS! LIFE IS MUCH BETTER THAN YOU THINK IT IS! PLEASE, DON'T KILL YOURSELF!!!
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~xxxblackxrosexxx Dec 22, 2011
Please read the new comments above.
And as much as I appreciate the feedback I will pass on thw hole heaven and hell aspect if yu don't mind.

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And All I can Think Of Is You <3

[98% of the teenage population does or has tried smoking pot. If you're one of the 2% who hasn't, copy & paste this in your signature]
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~GoWeegie Dec 22, 2011
Well, sorry for overreacting (or however you spell it), but... uh... what did you mean, "Pass on"? I don't know what that expression means.
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Mood: Sadness ~DontAskWontTell Dec 10, 2011
aint this the truth...

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"But Our Love; It Was Stronger, By Far Than The Love Of Those Who Were Older Than We, Of Many Far Wiser Than We. And Neither The Angels In Heaven, Nor Demons Down Under The Sea: Can Ever Dissever My Soul From The Soul Of The Beautiful Annabel Lee..."
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~GoWeegie Dec 17, 2011
Don't even think about it.
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Mood: Sadness ~DontAskWontTell Dec 17, 2011
i already have...three suicide attempts later: ive just given up. A human body is much harder to destroy than it looks

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"But Our Love; It Was Stronger, By Far Than The Love Of Those Who Were Older Than We, Of Many Far Wiser Than We. And Neither The Angels In Heaven, Nor Demons Down Under The Sea: Can Ever Dissever My Soul From The Soul Of The Beautiful Annabel Lee..."
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~GoWeegie Dec 17, 2011
You... just wait and see, things'll get better. Do NOT kill yourself.
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~DontAskWontTell Dec 17, 2011
i already tried, and it didn't work so im not even going to bother trying it anymore. Unless i hit rock bottom, again...

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"But Our Love; It Was Stronger, By Far Than The Love Of Those Who Were Older Than We, Of Many Far Wiser Than We. And Neither The Angels In Heaven, Nor Demons Down Under The Sea: Can Ever Dissever My Soul From The Soul Of The Beautiful Annabel Lee..."
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~xxxblackxrosexxx Dec 22, 2011
I wrote this a long long time ago when I was feeling how you are feeling now. It's very hard to believe but things do get better. Best of luck with everything.

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And All I can Think Of Is You <3

[98% of the teenage population does or has tried smoking pot. If you're one of the 2% who hasn't, copy & paste this in your signature]
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I will never love again You took what you wanted,
Then left me all alone.
How could I have been so stupid?
I should have known.
I thought I could be happy,
I had finally sound someone,
Who understood me.
Turns out everything I thought you were,
You were just pretending to be.
Your tore out my heart,
Then ripped it in two.
Look at what I've become,
And it's all because of you.
My friends tried to warn me,
Told me it was all a lie.
But I wouldn't believe me,
Because they couldn't,
Give me one reason why.
But now I see just how right they were.
You only wanted me for one thing,
You took it now your gone.
When you left,
You took my broken heart.
I will never love again by ~xxxblackxrosexxx
Just one slit by ~xxxblackxrosexxx
Don't let me go Mend my broken heart,
Fix my tortured soul.
Try to help me through this.
Don't let me go.

You say you don't know me,
I'm not who I used to be.
I know it's true;
But I still love you.

Don't leave me this way.
If you go what will I do?
I can't make it on my own.
I'm nothing without you.Don't let me go by ~xxxblackxrosexxx
Broken heart You weren't there,
And you don't care,
I see right through yourstupid lies,
And the mask you hide behind.

Friends forever,
Thats what you said,
What a lie,
Our friendships dead.

Torn apart,
Ripped in two,
My poor heart,
once belonged to you.

But now its broke,
Filled with dispair,
Tattered and torn,
beyond repair.Broken heart by ~xxxblackxrosexxx
Broken Helpless, broken, cold and afraid,
That's how you make me feel.
You took my life away for me,
Now I'm no longer real.

Look at what you've done to me.
This is what you make me be.
You've turned me into somebody else,
A mere shadow of my former self.

Is this what you wanted me to become?
I've lost my fight, my will to go on.
You've broken my mind, body and soul,
Since you took my heart so long ago.

Now I can't take it back,
And it's because I don't know how.
Why wont you just let me go?
Why can't you leave me alone?Broken by ~xxxblackxrosexxx
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