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Run -Edited- by xxxblackxrosexxx, literature

Beautiful Pain by xxxblackxrosexxx, literature

Run by xxxblackxrosexxx, literature

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Run

Run from the memories Breaking your heart. Run form the memories, Tearing you apart. Run all you want, But you cannot deny, The scenes playing out, In your tortured mind. I love you too Carved on your wrist, It's the ultimate sin, And you couldn't resist. Into spiritual realms you flee, But memories follow with ease. You praying now, Down on your knees, Dear God, Help me. Please. Plead all you want, But why can't you see, It won't go away, You'll never be free.

My Dear Best friend by xxxblackxrosexxx, literature

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My Dear Best friend

You're a social butterfly Pretend you don't know me As you flutter by You see right through me And just pass it off as another lie You said we were best friends But it is not a surprise That it has come to an end You dropped me For another silly trend And now you've left me It's clear who you are But before I could not see You're a self-obsessed little girl And now I'm finally free

All The Same by xxxblackxrosexxx, literature

Drowning In Confusion by xxxblackxrosexxx, literature

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Drowning In Confusion

Drowning in confusion Weighed down by the pain Not knowing what to do It's happening again The marks on my wrist Read I love you too Afraid of what you've done And what I'm doing to you I didn't mean to hurt you Or make you cry I didn't realise what I was doing Until you said 'goodbye' I'm lost in a sea of anguish And I don't know what to do You are throwing me a lifeline But can I trust you?

Please don't do it again by xxxblackxrosexxx, literature

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Please don't do it again

Please don't do it again My beckon of hope In this sea of life You were always there To ease the pain and strife Without you I don't know What I'd do Sorry for everything I have done I don't want to lose you I'm sorry for only caring about me And blocking you out I didn't understand what you were going through But now I am left without a doubt Knowing I was the one to cause this And not knowing how to help This is the one time I wish I were someone else If I could just be different Then this would never be A distorted nightmare Of a lost memory If only it were true And I could take it back Without your helping hand My

All in vain by xxxblackxrosexxx, literature

Truth or paranoia by xxxblackxrosexxx, literature

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I will never love again by xxxblackxrosexxx, literature

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I will never love again

You took what you wanted, Then left me all alone. How could I have been so stupid? I should have known. I thought I could be happy, I had finally sound someone, Who understood me. Turns out everything I thought you were, You were just pretending to be. Your tore out my heart, Then ripped it in two. Look at what I've become, And it's all because of you. My friends tried to warn me, Told me it was all a lie. But I wouldn't believe me, Because they couldn't, Give me one reason why. But now I see just how right they were. You only wanted me for one thing, You took it now your gone. When you left, You took my broken heart.

Just one slit by xxxblackxrosexxx, literature

Don't let me go by xxxblackxrosexxx, literature

Broken heart by xxxblackxrosexxx, literature

Broken by xxxblackxrosexxx, literature

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Broken

Helpless, broken, cold and afraid, That's how you make me feel. You took my life away for me, Now I'm no longer real. Look at what you've done to me. This is what you make me be. You've turned me into somebody else, A mere shadow of my former self. Is this what you wanted me to become? I've lost my fight, my will to go on. You've broken my mind, body and soul, Since you took my heart so long ago. Now I can't take it back, And it's because I don't know how. Why wont you just let me go? Why can't you leave me alone?

Girl in the mirror by xxxblackxrosexxx, literature

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Girl in the mirror

Look in the mirror, Don't know who I see, Something must be wrong. That can't be me. The once happy girl, Has fallen apart. Drowned in misery. Lost her broken heart. The happiness I had, Has all faded away. Falling deeper and deeper. Suffocated by the pain. But I need to be strong. Find a reason to go on. Can't cut it all away. That me has gone. In a way I've grown up, Don't turn to a razor blade. I know it won't help, Not in the long run. I learnt my lesson, Not to long ago. Find another way to deal with pain. Before my resistance gets to low. My friends give me strength, The strength to go on. Don't know what I'd d

Tortured soul by xxxblackxrosexxx, literature

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Tortured soul

You tore out my heart, And you tortured my soul, But I won't give in, I can't let you go. No matter what you do, I can't but love you, Even after the last few years, The anger, depression and endless tears. I want to stop but I don't know how, You've turned me into somebody else, I don't know what to do, The truth is I'd be lost without you. I have to live the rest of my life, Forever forced to stay by your side, If only I had seen it before, Your not who I thought you were. You blinded me with your countless lies, I couldn't see past the mask you hide behind, Everyone I knew tried to warn me about you, Now I know it was th

Jimmy by xxxblackxrosexxx, literature

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Jimmy

I can remember when I was young, It was all okay. Everyone was happy He was always there, Like a dad to me. But after my Nan died The drinking just got worse, Sometimes he didn't even recognise me And no one can ever understand how much that hurt. We tried our best to help him But we didn't know what to do, Maybe if we'd tried harder It wouldn't have ended like that. With him all alone. I'd seen him just the week before He had been better, He told me he was trying to stop. But he couldn't. By the next weekend it was over, He was gone. Nothing left but memories Old photos and whiskey bottles, Scattered all over his house.

Suicide by xxxblackxrosexxx, literature

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Suicide

I'm sorry i've got to do this I can't take anymmore. I loved you, and always will, please don't forget me, cos i'll never forget you. I hope to see you later on when your time to pass has come. thankyou for helping me I'm sorry it didnt work out better, you all tried your best please dont blame your selves. thats not what I want, I want you all to be happy, go on with your lives. do it for me cos I couldnt do it, not even for myself. I tried my best to be happy and free but at the end of the day, thats just not me.

Plastic smile by xxxblackxrosexxx, literature

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Plastic smile

I hide behind this plastic smile And no one seems to care They can't face up to my pain So they pretend it isn't there They know what I hide Underneath the long-sleeved tops The scars so perfectly cut Upon my fragile wrist The message is there bold and clear But no one wants to know They really just don't care About the truth behind my pain The silent tears stream down my face As everyone passes me by People who used to be my friends Look away without a blink of the eye I'm now just the girl in the corner That everyone thinks is strange Alienated from everyone else I did this to myself.

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Revenge by Kyriosa, literature

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Revenge

You had me going thinking this was real, Reopened scars I thought had healed. Promised me love, all you felt was lust, My hopes were high then they were crushed. Believed your smile, that veil of disguise, Wove around me, a cloak of treacherous lies. Thought you'd let me in, but you left me outside, Had me contemplating meaningless suicide. Did you enjoy it, darling, watching me suffer? Whilst distantly watching with your other lovers. Why did you do it? Is this your fetish? Causing me torment, is it what you relished? You had me writhing in anguish, anger, pain, Clamped me to you in invisible chains. Drunk with stupidity, like

Eyes within by al24, literature

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Eyes within

This is not a tale, of love or lies A story told through dark brown eyes Another story, It ain't true Another tale to rapture you... Oh no cos listen, eyes you see? Ain't always mine, a part of me Their sights, once clear, not anymore Are twisted round, from root to core But does this mean, I cannot see? I cross the room, tred gently, To push my eyes, hard on the glass, To try to view whats come to pass No? Try again, lean in really close But staring back, Is just the ghost That someone else, another shell Inside my eyes, is where I dwell... Inside my heart, it starts to bleed, Within my mind, it starts to feed, Outside my b

Tales of Destiny VI by kaze-no-kakera, literature

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Tales of Destiny VI

Chapter Six Forever and a Day "But when I look at him I see all those memories of us and I wonder if maybe he's still seeing them too…" -Anon "I hate you!" Marino flicked the television channel over, one hand supporting his head. For some reason he was recalling the day when he was just a kid – the day that Destiny had said she'd hated him. He didn't know why he was thinking about that now; it was such a random memory. It was the first and last time she'd ever said she hated him – and that was also the day Minnie was stolen. Minnie was, once upon a time, her favourite toy. She'd been given it to her for her sixth or seventh birthday and

Words without sounds by brokenheartedbullet, literature

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Words without sounds

My heart pounding, deep beneath my skin. The feelings of love, Can never leave. My heavy breathing, content with no fear. The warmth of your body, Can comfort deep in my mind. The touches of imperial desire, Sends pulses to race. The pure intensity, Still tingling to the bone. The satisfaction you have left, In every inch of my body, Can never be described. The one way to understand, Is to listen to my breathing, In time with his. Expressing all feelings. The words without sounds, Which have all meaning. The aftermath of silence, Dedicated to the love we have made. My sensation is speechless, No way to explain. Our bodi

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Please don't do it again by xxxblackxrosexxx, literature

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Please don't do it again

Please don't do it again My beckon of hope In this sea of life You were always there To ease the pain and strife Without you I don't know What I'd do Sorry for everything I have done I don't want to lose you I'm sorry for only caring about me And blocking you out I didn't understand what you were going through But now I am left without a doubt Knowing I was the one to cause this And not knowing how to help This is the one time I wish I were someone else If I could just be different Then this would never be A distorted nightmare Of a lost memory If only it were true And I could take it back Without your helping hand My

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Current Residence: My house
Favourite genre of music: Punk

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Moulin Rouge. Dirty Dancing. Titanic. The Nightmare Before Christmas...And many more

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Garbage. Evanesence. Bon Jovi. Fall Out Boy. My Chemical Romance. HIM...And many more

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Darren Shan. Virgina Andrews. Karin Slaughter. LJ Smith. Stephen King. Tess Gerristen. Dean Koontz

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Thanks, and goodbye.

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Hello. i would just like to say a big thanks to everyone who has left me comments. As you can probably see I don't come on here annymore because ubfortuantly I have fallen out of the habit of writing. I appreciate all your kind words but please do not be offended if you ask me a question and I don't reply because I don't imagine I will be coming on here again. I don't want to take my work off here because although I feel like a differnt person to the one who wrote these poems they are part of me. Ashleigh Rose.

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I don't really come on here any more so thank you for the comments and the faves, but please don't be offended if I don't reply because I am no meaning to be rude. It actuslly means a lot that people take the time to write me a comment or add one of my poems as a fave. I don't really write anymore, but I still check this every once in a while. x

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Haven't done one of these in a long time.. This summer holiday has been quite good, well better than expected. Mainly thanks to Tim <3 I miss many people though, such as: Hannah, Chris, Em, Jemma etc. Love you all. And college is drawing close. As in reults day..well depending on how badly that goes I may not have to worry about college all that much any way I am looking forward to a new start at New College But I am honestly dreading being away from Tim and Sarah. I depend on them two to help me through the day and I'm not quite sure I really aware of how much I need them. But I think we can work it out...I suppose we will just

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I really like your poets they are really emotional.
Nice to see you like Bon Jovi! :3

I dont want to be bitten!

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You are this worlds new Shakesphere (srry my spelling is aweful). Dont stop writing!!!

Your writing is superb

I love your writing!

hello.

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